Half Empty or Half Full?
I started this post over a week ago. I deleted half of what was originally written. I wasn’t sure if I should continue this. Oh well.
I’m usually a “Glass Half Empty” kind of person. I tell my daughter, Alysa, that I’m a Realist. She tells me, “Your Negative, Oprah says that if you think negative, it will happen”. Whatever!
I keep my personal blog separate from my work. I just don’t want them to use what I write about, against me. I’ve heard stories of co-workers being told to “be nice” on their personal blogs when talking about work. “Work” has asked for links, friend requests and twitter accounts of their employees, so that they can follow them. They say it’s for biz dev and marketing purposes. I will not give them that information, I just don’t trust them.
We were a better company a couple years ago. The creativity then was one of the reasons I stayed. The atmosphere was exciting. The people I worked with became good friends of mine. Now, it’s stressful and scary.
Reviews are coming up. They reworked them so that it’s completely done online. The first time we tried the online reviews, we weren’t allowed to go back and spell check or rewrite what you had entered. The peer reviews asked questions that I had no idea about. How would I know if my peer keeps all their jobs within budget? We don’t know what the budget is to begin with, so how would I know? I heard the new review questions are more detailed. I wonder if this is how they’ll determine the next round of cuts.
Another thing that bothers me, why do I feel guilty for leaving on time? Or for going on vacation? When you come back from vacation, do you feel like you have to prove that you’re still important to the company? Should you continue in that kind of environment?
Is it the economy or the failings of management? That’s what I need to figure out. Will this post bite me in the ass? I hope not. Aren’t I entitled to my own opinions?
